We are officially pregnant. I know that should be obvious by 17 weeks, but having heard the heartbeat (twice) and seeing the belly grow (along with emotional outbursts), it's becoming more official in my mind. We could not be more excited to be looking forward to the birth of our little one. But there have been certain parts of pregnancy that have really frustrated me. I know that all you moms our there know exactly what I'm talking about. I want nothing more than to bring this child into the world. But do we have to learn all these little lessons of patience and endurance along the way?? Of course we do.
More specifically, I'm talking about the weight gain. I have always struggled with my weight. That is nothing new. I spent years trying to lose weight, and only failing. After I moved to Arizona, I finally discovered the gym and became a runner (in my own right). I loved watching my body change! Finally, I was comfortable in a size 8/10 and enjoying the life of a medium size.
Then... marriage hits. You get happy, and you get fatter. I said it wouldn't happen to me, but it did. I have the most amazing husband who has always made me feel like the most beautiful person in the world! I no longer stressed about my size and just enjoyed our social eating habits. But as we got closer to starting a family, I tried to buckle down and really lose some extra pounds to make my pregnancy that much more enjoyable.
Then... the holidays hit. And boy, did they hit! And to our joy and surprise, we were pregnant after a miscarriage and 6 months of trying. We couldn't have been happier.
Then... the nausea hit. And what made it better?? Food!!
I have gained almost 20 pounds in 17 weeks. This has been the biggest trial of my pregnancy. I don't know how to handle it, and I'm afraid that I'm not enjoying this amazing time in my life as much as I should. As the nausea begins to subside and I continue my gym routine, I'm hoping that I can just sit back and enjoy the ride. I have wanted to be a mother my entire life. I can't wait for this baby to join our family! I am making a resolve right now to enjoy the journey.
